Literary Inspiration on Aging - John Galsworthy

James had passed through the fire, but he had passed also through the river of years which washes out the fire; he had experienced the saddest experience of all--forgetfulness of what it was like to be in love.
-The Forsyte Saga by John Galsworthy

While flicking through trying to find a suitable quote to do with aging (why? Cause it's my birthday on Sunday! Am I big-upping myself? Abso-freakin-lutely!) I came across this quote from The Forsyte Saga. As I read it, it made me think - and as per usual you guys get to join me on that journey. Lucky you :P
I was on Facebook yesterday and looking through photos of friends at a drinks thing that I wasn't able to make. Hitting next, next, next. All of a sudden popped up a picture of Ex-S with his arm around another girl... and it didn't hurt anymore. I was surprised, but I didn't get the stab in the heart that I used to. I've come through the fire and out the other side of it fairly whole. But with the course of time (and it has taken a LONG time for it not to hurt anymore - we broke up in Nov 07) the bad memories have started to fade and that's not a bad thing
BUT
the good ones seem to have faded a bit too. I remember them as fun, but not with that golden-shimmer sparkle. I seem to have lost the nerve or the desire to say, like the character of Gareth toasts the couple at the Scottish wedding in the film, Four Weddings and a Funeral:
"A toast before we go into battle. True love - in whatever shape or form it may
come - may we all in our dotage be proud to say 'I was adored once too'
."
I miss feeling like I was adored once, and I don't know what to do to get that feeling back. Any hints or ideas, Scribblettes?

2 comments:

  1. Yes. it's too true.Memories fade - both good and bad - but whether or not the picture begins to fade around the edges, you will always have that experience. It is a part of you, and it makes you who you are.Ask yourself this:Do you know how to love? If you do, then you have probably been loved by someone else. See? You are lovable!

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  2. I understand what you're saying babe. I ended a 6yr relationship with my man in June 08. He started seeing someone in August 08, been with her ever since and is off to the UK with her (our original plans) in April of this year.
    I'm not jealous and don't want him back, it was my decision. But I do miss parts of him. The friendship has gone. I still remember all our memories - good & bad. But I'm sure in time they will fade like yours have.

    I think that happens though so you have room for new memories, with a new person in your life who makes you happy and feel adored and special.

    To be honest, I have no idea how you get that adored feeling back. It's sad to say you would receive it only from a man, but being 20-something females, that's what we tend to think. Really good friends make you feel adored. Just a smile you get from them when they spot you.

    Love and adoration comes in many forms. :)

    (sorry for the overkill. lol)

    xxx

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