Take now for example. I've had the flu for almost a week. I've had constant headaches and general body aches during that time. Being off uni has been more stressful than you could imagine because it is my first week back and right now I have no real idea of what is going on and what I need to know. I haven't had a chance to see SB until tonight (doctor asked me to voluntarily quarantine myself) so we've been conducting a phone/email/text love affair and that isn't fantastic.
Mum made a mistake today, it wasn't huge but it stressed me out even more. And Ka-Boom! The bitch came out to play. I hate it when that happens. It destroys my illusion that on the whole I am a nice person. Yet I don't know how to change that default reaction.
How do you react when it all gets too much? Does it make you think less of yourself? Tell me in the comments...
I get really neurotic and panicky. And yes, bitchy as well, if something goes wrong. Don't be too hard on yourself, you've had a hell of a week.
ReplyDeleteSometimes, usually when I'm running on 3.5 hours sleep each night, (this happens during my college semester - study + 3 hours of commuting + working at night + writing 'Frock & Roll' = no time for sleep), I notice a total dip in my personality - I'm too tired to even speak and definitely feel a little grumpier! It isn't pleasant, and sometimes I really have to remind myself to snap out of it - I guess the only time I feel spectacularly unimpressed with myself is when I'm at college or work or something, and I'm talking to my friends and they're looking at me expectantly to be my usual silly self, but I'm too exhausted to crack a joke/convey mass enthusiasm!
ReplyDeleteaww you poor chicken!
ReplyDeleteI know what you're saying though.. I can become a right bitch too!
No-one can be happy & pleasant all the time. So take your time to be moody.
Hope you're better soon!! xx
As happened recently, I get really sick and just want to stay in bed and cry. Which makes me more stressed because I am too sick to do all the things I need to do :(
ReplyDeleteIf I am just having a bad day, I get snappy, which annoys me as I generally take it out on people who don't deserve it (i.e., my boyfriend.)
I get snappy - really snappy and mean, but always feel bad about it. I think if you feel bad about it then it shows that your not a horrible person - sometimes everything just gets a bit much. Sometimes I just need to take a deep breath and not say anything for a bit, and sometimes it goes away - just need that little bit of time to cool off.
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