My pseudonym is Scribbles and I weigh 107 kgs (that's around 236 pounds).
I'm not going to say that the weight disgusts me, that I never feel gorgeous or beautiful - that simply wouldn't be true. I dress well, I love that I have a curvy figure and I'm lucky to have a boyfriend that would cherish me at any size.
The one thing I cannot get away from is that 107kgs, even on a 5 foot 9 frame (or roughly 175cm) is not a healthy weight to be. I put myself at risk for obesity-related illnesses such as diabetes and I do my PCOS no favours by being this weight either. SB and I would like to have kids some day and my weight is definitely a barrier to this.
My goal this year is to get my weight down to 87kgs - 192 pounds - by December 20. That means a loss of 20 kgs over the year, which I feel is a realistic goal. Of course, if I lose more, I will be rapt! But this is my SMART goal (specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, timely) and will be my driving force this year.
So, at the risk of fatty-boombastic jibes from the internet, this is the way I look now. No artful layering, no cleavage-showing tops or maxi-dresses to catch the eye... this is as close to naked as I am prepared to get on the interwebs.
I could make all sorts of excuses for the way that I look in these shots - I had a stomach bug over the weekend and I feel bloated, it's horrid lighting, it's terrible camera angles... the reality is this that the camera doesn't capture what isn't there.
So what am I doing about it? For the rest of January and the beginning of February:
- I'm on an alcohol detox, bar special occasions (this will be one of my bestie's hens nights, the 7th of Feb and on Valentines Day).
- I will Wii Fit or walk every day and will endeavour to do both whenever possible, adding up to a daily activity level of one hour.
- I love my salty fatty fried food but will keep consumption down to once a week, trying to eat as widely as possible and reducing my carb intake.
- Today and tomorrow, I will be following a largely fruit and vegetable diet to get my gut back to normal after this bug I have just had.
So as you can see, no huge changes... just a lot of little ones to keep me on the right track. Stay tuned for the next monthly update of "A weighty subject" and see how I do!
If anyone would like to join me on this voyage of honesty, and making 2010 the year that you do something about your weight, the year you become accountable for your health, let me know in the comments. Steal the badge at the top of this page and post your own blog! Know I'll be there for you 100%!